So this week, Fiancee was gone from like 5 am Wednesday am, till Friday night for work. You have NO clue how much I miss him when he is gone. I have this need, it may be pathological, but this need to have all my family close to me. But then again, most people haven't lost children. That has a lot to do with it. Your loved ones are only safe and sound when they are in your arms.
Friday I was going to do a mad cleaning rush, you see, I get SO lazy when Fiancee isn't home, I do not do dishes, we ate pizza rolls (on which I seriously burnt my upper lip, I look like I have a cold sore...STAY AWAY form the microwave!) I don't do laundry, I let the wet towels sit on the floor in the bathroom. Everyone needs to let their inner slob run wild sometimes. So Friday I WAS going to clean, and I did clean, but as I was cleaning one of the fish tanks, yes I have 4, it's a self care thing, I noticed my corydora catfish were acting very very strange. Well I spent most of the day watching the tank, and I now, once again, have catfish eggs, AND baby guppies in the same tank on the same day. I can't get rid of fish as fast as my fish are having them. I just gotta except that baby guppies are going to end up as feeder fish, but I just can not do that. I hope my daughters and my step daughter who is visiting for the weekend will get to see the catfish eggs hatch, they wiggle like jelly before they hatch.
Friday, Fiancee comes home with only 1 of 3 kids. We were expecting 1 would stay with his mom, as he is in the band and has to play at football games, but the other step daughter, well she is having more and more issues. Serious like you are going to ruin your life issues. She told her dad when he went to get her that she was not coming and she did not want him to be her dad anymore. If it were my daughter, I would have picked her up and put her in the car anyways. But that's just me. Fiancee is very upset, I am upset, so I can guess that he is 7 times as upset. He went for a long walk and talked to our pastor and that set him right. Our pastor has been working with us on a plan on how to deal with her and her rebellion, her lying, her failing school, he skipping school and having boys over when no one is over (and her grandmother says she was in her Pajamas when the boy was over) The reason for this last outrage, is she was talking to some guy she didn't know online, some guy in another state. What she can't understand is you never know if that is a 45 year old sex offender you are talking to, as you can guess they were not talking about the weather. That is why she does not want Fiancee to be her dad anymore. GRR. I love her, but man she is a hard one to love.
Well lets just say that totally ruined my planned homecoming with Fiancee and family. Put a damper on this entire weekend. It remains to be seen if we can salvage some fun with everyone being in a bit of a mood .We have such little time when it is all of us. Visitation my daughters with their dad, Fiancee's kids with us, other activities they want to do which keep them away from us. So little time we have has a family.
